Hiding

I am in hiding. I am so detached I am not clear what I am hiding from.

I am hiding from him.

The him I married

The him he became

The him he is trying to be

I am hiding

Hiding from me

The Me I AM

The me I once was

The Me I Am

The me I want to be

Oh let us repeat that

I am hiding from the me I want to be

I am scared of her

I am scared of who I was

I am scared of who I am

Deep down I bury myself in this misery

I use it like a blanket that I have loved

A blanket that has kept me warm for many years

It needs washing

It has holes

It isn't soft

I use it daily

I use it to hide

I can't name much that I am NOT hiding from