I feel like I have become agoraphobic
I am not trapped in a house
I am trapped inside of me
Not trapped for fear of a panic attack no I am trapped for fear of feeling
Of being flooded with emotions that I do not acknowledge
I have built my own bunker right inside of me, I am safe yet I am trapped, alone, surrounded by concrete walls and eating fucking canned food, barely living - totally surviving
Is this my life, will I live like this forever
Will I ever take a breath of fresh air, will I smile and laugh and feel joy, will I go after my desires
Will I breathe again
We are the Gatherers.....
9 months ago
I know it's hard to believe or even imagine it at the moment, but things will get better. I know I felt the same way months ago, and though I have a long way to go, everything is starting to look so much brighter. You'll see!
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