Yep, that is me. Seriously bitter. I hear things about marriage, engagement, love, family and my eyes roll in my head and I swear my head is going to spin off and knock someone out.
I am bitter. I do not believe in any of it at this moment. I don't have to believe in it. If you have found love good for you. Embrace it.
As for me, I believe in me.
I believe in the love I have for my amazing boys and the love they have for me. I believe in my flawed family. I believe in me.
I believe I married a man that has no conscience, I believe I married a man that does not love me and may never have, I believe I married a man that is incapable of putting others first, I no longer believe that he is good underneath all this sickness. He is not good nor does he want to be good.
I believe in me. Someday this divorce will be complete and I will move on. Until then I reserve the right to be bitter, to not even acknowledge love and I will heal.
I believe in me.
We are the Gatherers.....
9 months ago
Courage--
ReplyDeleteOh sweetheart. I wish I could give you a real life hug. You sound to me like you're in a lot of pain right now.
Be sad if you must. This is a phase. It will pass. There is happiness waiting for you.
A little suggestion-- have you read "Broken Open?" I love that book.
(((C!)))